About the Author
He's a freak. An absolute psycho. Seriously... run for your life!
-----Actually, my name is Ray, and I go by the name PaganBear online and RiverWind Spider in my pagan community. I am, basically... nobody. In the worldly sense, I'm someone you'd barely have any regard for at all. In most circles I'm hardly considered attractive, I almost never have more than $100 to my name or a job to speak of, and I've failed in every way every thing I've ever tried to become a somebody in that sense. I have no college degree. I'm not ordained in any way or decorated by any institutional backing. I'm not even a professional speaker or author. I just did the best I could. My entire life's experience led me to knowing all that you'll read or hear here. I never learned any of it for the money, so I am - as a matter of fact - a bold example of what can be accomplished without money being the measure, motivation, or object of our life.
-----And I hope I can inspire people everywhere to know this... because yes, right-wingers out there... unlike you, I actually DO believe in a free market. I believe in a market that, if you don't want to, you don't  HAVE to participate in it. It doesn't get any more free than that!
-----I'd actually lived my entire childhood as an atheist, arguing against Christian neighbors and very much an outcast because of my lack of regard for the taboos other insisted on thrusting upon me... my deepest of convictions were always seen as me being evil because they weren't the right convictions... whatever!
-----I was born and raised in Houston, Texas, graduated high school in a small town in Arkansas, and spent the best part of my adult life in Atlanta, Georgia. It was there that my need to stop being an outcast and alone took over. I caved in and became a Christian, which led me to some of the most painful moments of my life. Two and a half years in a Christian cult known as the International Churches of Christ, or ICC, to be more specific.
-----I did intensive biblical studies during that time, leading them for others that I was trying to convert. But I also did deeper independent studies and learned more, to the point where I understood not just why the ICC's doctrines were faulty, but pretty much all fundamentalist views of scriptures. It was during this time, believe it or not, that I started to return to my original convictions from childhood, and found myself becoming a very enthusiastic pagan.
-----After a lifetime of needing a people of my own, it's only been in paganism that I found people who accept me for who I am... and who taught me to do the same for myself and others. I came out of many closets, not just as a gay man, but as a polyamorist, nudist, naturalist, exhibitionist, and ultimately, and most recently, as someone who is fed up with the way of life that everyone is forced to live by. It is from the works of author Daniel Quinn that, for the first time, I found someone who saw what I saw: That the world was not meant for man, and man was not meant to rule it.
-----I coined the phrase, antiTHEist (which, yes, is different from antitheist because "the" is in all caps, which is crucial to how I mean the word), and it is what I am now—a firm believer that there is no single one-right-way for people to live, and a speaker against anyone who thinks that there is.
-----I imagine that my findings will be odd to many. They'll hopefully spread, but then people will come here to see the freak who thinks he knows what the kingdom of God is, or when the world ends, or who the antichrist is, and all that jazz. I know many weirdos have tried to do all that before. Trust me, I read some of them. And well, yeah... like them, I can say I was given many revelations. Not by God. By opening my goddamned eyes and seeing without this God-stuff clouding my vision. I'm not that kind of a freak, I'm the kind that those freaks fear... the one who sees the kind of truth that religious people refuse to admit. I've looked at the scriptures with nonreligious eyes, and I really couldn't see how today's religions came up with the crap that they did. How do you get what you people practice in the name of Christianity out of THAT?
-----So when I say I found the answers to these questions, they are the metaphorical answers intended by the authors who were speaking in metaphors, symbols, and codes. They were speaking against the powers over them but in ways that those powers wouldn't know what they were saying, because speaking against such powers would have them tortured and killed. People imposing power over others.... they are the demons and the archons and the antichrists that these writers spoke of. But then powerful people converted to this mistake known as Christianity... a horrible accident where the rebellion became a mindless religion, and therefore, became the very thing the rebellion was against.
-----And now, you're told not to rebel against the greatest rebel figure ever believed in, and all of his words have been twisted to make you blindly follow an establishment that absorbed him. Rebellions of all kinds have always been snuffed out in such ways—reduced to mere childish phases and not taken seriously, or made into harmless fashion statements that the powers then capitalize on through films and merchandise.
-----In God we Trust is printed on money. But the very fact we bow down to the power that money represents proves we do not trust the gods at all. We trust only our own dominance over the world the Creator(s) have created. And that makes our Judeo-Christian empires probably the stupidest self-defying creation ever.
-----For centuries people have anticipated a second coming and an antichrist, and have blindly accepted that these things are yet to come. But I found the answers, and they are very sensible and understandable answers: it's already happened, it's still happening, and Christianity is its own antichrist!
-----I am not a Christian. I have too much respect for Christ's teachings to be a Christian. A Christian is someone who follows a religion in the name of Christ, and to me that completely defeats the purpose. He taught us to rebel against such things. It'd be like going out and beating up people of a different color because they don't believe in the worship of Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr. wouldn't it? It's insane. Religion's biggest mistake is that it's trained us all to be humble, meek, and quietly accept our place in this misery. To want a better world is considered ludicrous and delusional. To love the planet and want it to be taken better care of is sinful and Satanic. Even those who feel differently think there's nothing we can do, and so millions merely go along with its destruction. It's time for that to come to a screeching halt.
-----I am a very proud pagan, a rebel, a lover of the earth and the world and the people who lived harmlessly upon it for millions of years. I am in deep anger and hatred for this civilization that mindlessly destroys it, and trains people that there's no other way to live. Other than that, I drum, I read tarot and teach about its symbolism, I am an aspiring author, and other than that, I'm just your average big fat hairy gay man. Just another white guy. I couldn't possibly pretend to be the voice of anyone, but I am a voice speaking out for all the tribes and ancestors and peoples who've been conquered and whose ways were made outlaw by the empire we live by now. And also for the many creatures that are going extinct because of our raping of this world.
-----And there is only one thing I can claim to know:
-----There is no single right way to live. Trying to force one onto people has created this monstrous world-paving, life-destroying empire we call civilization, where people insist that humans are tainted and evil and deserve the miserable lives they have, without ever thinking for a brief moment that it doesn't have to be this way, and this is NOT THE NATURAL STATE OF MAN!!!
-----There are multitudes of beautiful ways to live, ways that work for people. I don't believe that we have grasped that as a people for far too long. We put up laws and walls and barriers that limit the amount of ways we can live, when we should be encouraging variety and diversity. And that really is the key basic teaching behind what I believe and what I say in the website, and in my upcoming book.
-----So if you were expecting an insane book full of conspiracy theories or odd metaphysical cosmic secrets to your soul and chakras and yoga positions, you'll be seriously disappointed. But if you're looking for a deep, sincere calling for freedom and common sense? Yep, that's what it is. That's what I'm about. And I hope I don't disappoint ya there.

D. Ray Lilley
Ray's Blog - Website